Pain

I reckon the pain is the worst. I feel it all the time, sometimes more, sometimes less, but always there. Its location varies. Sometimes it's in my back (phantom pain? How can I feel pain in my lower back when I have absolutely no sensation there?). Usually it's in my right arm. When I fell from the tree, I must have landed on that arm, or hit it badly somehow. I have a brachioplexus injury (for ages I could only think of it as a bracchiosaurus injury), which, as I understand it, means nerve damage. According to the doctors, it can't be healed. In reality, it did mean severely impaired movement and reduced strength for months, though luckily most of that has come back. No, it's the pain that's the worst. Sometimes it's like a deep itch that can't be satiated. Sometimes it feels like my arm is on fire. Sometimes it just throbs. It stops me from sleeping and reduces me to taking strong painkillers at night. I hate to, and I'm alarmed by how addictive they can be, but without them, no sleep. And that can become a vicious circle - pain means I don't sleep, fatigue means more pain, which means less sleep and on and on... Yes, it sucks.